Faith is a wonderful thing, isn't it? It's also a weird thing. My previous post (technically today, but I wrote it before I went to sleep for the night) talks about physics and whatnots, theories on the nature of the creation of the universe or something. I don't look for proof of God. I look for explanations of God, or at least possibilities. The scientific mind is characterized by the desire to know. It is also characterized by the blessing/curse of looking for that which does not fit. It is the same as the investigative mind; when it sees something, it wants to make sure that everything fits properly. Scientific formulas nowadays are so complicated that it can take years of work for several people to test a theory against everything else that we know. If it is rejected, it does not disappear, but it remains in the bank of knowledge, so that if something changes in our schema of belief and proof, we can go back and test that theory to see whether or not it now fits. That is why so many people stopped believing in God. He no longer seems to fit into the schema of the universe. Where is there a place for God? Where can heaven possibly be? What is the nature of God? These all seem to be questions asked not by the inquisitive mind but the desperate mind, desiring to have a structure of belief in which everything makes sense. But God does not make sense if we must prove him. The Bible says, "Thou Shalt Not Put The Lord To The Test." (paraphrased). This is traditionally intended to apply to asking God for miracles or guidance. But can it not also mean that we must have faith even when it does not seem to make sense, when it seems to be impossible? The truth is we may never know. Mankind on earth is far from being able to discern the edges of the universe, and as many theories as we throw around, there are always little things that make little sense. All theories break down at the beginning, and we must have different theories about the nature of the universe at the instant of creation. By the laws of nature as we percieve them, the Big Bang is impossible. Where did the universe come from? What is it's nature? Will we ever know? I don't know. But I believe in God, and so I look at these questions not looking for God, but knowing he is there and trying to understand him. It's weird. anyway, late for church, gotta go.