Why is it that some people are impossible to talk to? I mean, some people I have such difficulty talking to about anything non-trivial. It's not even an issue of courage, because sometimes I have the courage to bring up difficult conversations, and even then, they won't come up. I thought of a cute quote earlier: "I thought I was full of courage, but I was just full of shit. I went to the bathroom, and my courage was gone." But no, I tried calling to talk, not just chat, and I couldn't get through the barrier between us. I couldn't navigate that maze, nor push my way through it. I kept looking for an opportunity, but they never came, like trying to cross a busy street. My only other possibility is going to be the wild leap over it and hope I don't trip or land on anything spiky or get crushed by two-way traffic (to mix my metaphors). I really need this to happen today, before it gets lost in the rush of things. Wish me luck, blogger. I hate losing friends just because we don't talk.