Monday, March 28, 2005

Wow, it's been a long time. I bet no one even reads this for several days, because no one is used to checking it anymore.
Life is:

cooking. I am a cook at a country club. The head chef is my best friend of 8 years, and only a year and a half older than me. The other head chef is the same age. They are both video gamers, have no lives except games and work and the occasional party, and I hang out with them now and then, when I'm not busy. We have a new cook with us, named Amy, an art school grad, who has a secondary job of cooking and catering (by herself) family meals. I spend my time at work making line item orders and washing dishes, for the most part, interrupted/complimented by an almost non-stop flirtation and/or crude joking with the wait staff and/or kitchen staff. I have grown to despise my job, not because it sucks or I hate cooking, but because it is impossible to be "the real me" while I am there, as it encourages me to "play the role" and discourages me from bringing any part of the outside world in with me.

dancing. As you know (probably), I did ballroom for all 4 years of college. I have recently (9? weeks ago) started attending wednesday night western style dance lessons at a nearby bar/club. I say nearby, but I drive an hour to pick up my friend Drew, and an hour back to the club, every night. You ask why, and it's true that he only has his work truck and his uninsured and unregistered motorcycle, but it also gives me an extra 2 hours (both ways) to spend time with him. It helps in making up for all the time we didn't talk during college...which was a lot. The class is mostly middle-aged people, most either married with kids or single and not looking because they're out of a bad relationship. There are a few older people, and a few youngsters like Drew and myself, but even some of the young people are married. [grins and shrugs] It very much reminds me of ballroom practices, everyone dances with everyone, usually pretty basic stuff but at least one fancy move each week, and not a singles scene at all. it's $2 door charge, $1 drinks, and we are literally the only people who come on wednesday nights except a few bar rats and a few people who show up after the lesson (8-9:30) and dance a little. But we control the music [laughs] so yah. I have also, as of 2 days ago, started going to a little coffee shop an hour's drive into town for tango nights, in which there are lots of people crammed into a small space doing argentine tango. After one time going with a friend from dance class to "check it out", I know it's going to be a regular thing in my weekly schedule. It's also an outlet for ballroom, which I can't do at western dance class. I asked the dj for a salsa the first week, and he said, "This is Midnight Rodeo, not Midnight Ro-dé-o. All I've got is Swavamente."

video game. I am hooked on World of Warcraft, an online role playing game. My primary character is a Tauren (minotaur) Druid who is focusing on healing spells, but also has the ability to turn into a bear, a cheetah, a sea lion, and a regular lion. I am part of a guild that I love because everyone helps everyone else, and I have a friend who finally got back online a couple days ago, because she had moved and didn't have internet. You don't care about it very much, so I won't go into detail except that I'm level 35, of a present maximum of 60, and the character is perfect for my personality.

job hunting. Between work and dancing, I manage to tear myself away from my video games and books (I'm reading Faust by Goethe) to look online for a job and/or work on my resume at least a couple times a week. Except this week, because I was sick for the first half, and too busy for anything including video games for the second half. Being a cook at easter sucks. But carving stations are cool; you get to meet everyone. Anyway, I alternate between looking in San Diego and Houston and general Ohio for a job in the publishing industry, or a publishing company I want to work for. It is not very fruitful, primarily because, like a plant, I don't water it or tend it enough.

friends. And then, beyond all that, I sometimes find time to hang out with my friends, besides Drew on dance nights. Those friends include Charles, Matt, Drew (other nights), Kat, Kristen (when I'm passing through her college town on random trips or she's in town on break from school), and Natalie. Matt I just don't really call, and Charles can't do much because when he's not working he usually has his 14 month old son, and so is either playing video games or watching a movie at home. Drew works all the time, and right now has no phone. Kat I just don't call much, which is my own damn fault, but she doesn't like taking the initiative to call me too much, plus she occasionally visits school friends (she graduated this winter) for indefinate periods of time. Kristen isn't in town much, and Natalie I just...don't have fun hanging out with very often. I mean, we have a nice conversation, and then we hang out, and either it's not something she wants to do, or it's not something I want to do. [sighs and shrugs]

youth group. And, I don't go to youth group, because it's at the same time as dance class on wednesdays. But technically I'm a Lifeteen core member, and meetings are going to become mandatory at some point in the near future. At that point, I will need to start doing that, and it will become a big part of my life as well. Rather than the theoretical part of my life at present. [laughs]

Girlfriend. Not meaning to put her at the end of the list, but I spend time emailing my girlfriend and talking to her on the phone sometimes, and thinking about her all the time. But since she is 1000 miles away, my schedule does not revolve around her, nor her schedule around me. I get to see her in 9 days, which is more exciting than I can believe, since March seemed to skip from 16 to 26 in a matter of 3 days. Honestly, I still can't believe that it's only 2 days more than a week until I see her. which sucks, because I thought I had 2 weeks of dancing before I went to see her, but great, because it means that I'll be dancing with her instead. [laughs] My brain is funny sometimes.

Well, blogger, this is my update. I don't know when I'll update you further, but when I get up energy (which is not now), I'm going to put up my dungeons and dragons story on my other site, whatever it's called. I was at an anime convention with my little brother, had a good time hanging out with him, gaming was fun, anime was good, japanese pop artists sucked. anyway, I got the soundtracks to Wolf's Rain and Haibane Renmei, both which are extremely excellent. The composers Yoko Kanno and Kow Otani did them, respectively, and if you are the type that cares, look them up. because they're frickin good. au revoir, blogger.